suddenly i feel entirely lost and 闷.
the affairs of the heart is definitely not a good thing to meddle with.

have you ever wondered how is it like being the audience in the theater and watch yourself re-enact the whole scene?

before i am able to find her, i must first find myself.

ultimately, sadness is always the legacy of our past.
and so happen to be that regrets are pains of the memory.

in life, it is always learning to accept what you cannot change.
learning to love life as it really happens, not as to have it happen.
life is meant for a battle between misery and bliss.

i understand that those friends of yours attaches unkindness to criticism.
i jolly well know that they are angry on your behalf.
i give thumbs up for angry people to criticize as an outlet for their anger.
therefore, i am nice enough to forgive.
but its certain that they have no right to speak.
seeking your sole, haven't you made any mistakes yourself?

i learnt it the hard way since 16.
i am able to take things my stride (:

when your day isn't perfect, its not a failure or terrible loss.
its simply another day.

Y7:54 AM

technically, i am always labelled as a big fat meanie.
having such things like "no more sorrows".
with people applauding such acts.
perhaps in the minds of others, i am the criminal to his sorrows.
from the start till now, it forever is.

its just a meet up.
whats there to chicken out?

its actually nothing so serious.
but why stir it up?

Y1:59 AM

i wanna go malacca again! i love the foodie there! (:

anyway, just came back from mandy's wedding in msia, larkin.
the journey to and fro is time consuming.
nevertheless, the process is enjoyable.
wishing them a happy and blissful marriage!

when i arrived back in spore today, emptiness filled me.
i felt like i lost touch with spore for a long period of time.
these few days suddenly seemed like months.
a weird but heart wrenching feeling.

a little something, but its asked to be kept.
isnt that a little unappreciative?
i just figure out that it might be useful.

if you detest me, just sound it out.
i can really understand that.

Y3:03 AM

please grant the little boy a better someone who will make him feel loved.

perhaps 10 years down the road, that pang of sadness will strike her.
for the way that she have treated him.
regrets? supposedly it'll come.

everyone's mummy bringing them overseas during the holidays.
where's mine?

Y6:14 AM

快乐好像离我越来越远

Y3:23 AM

its pretty demoralizing for the 1st paper that i have taken.

cant wait for exams to end!

I WANT TO BE FREED!

Y1:37 AM

with the sudden standstill, it seems as though all my busy schedule is gone.

facing the aftermath of a rainy afternoon, it seems that i am left alone in this world.

everyone seems like strangers to me.

i seem to let each day passing through me like the wind.

the pain within me is unbearable.

i choose to let go many beautiful things around me.

and it seems like i will never be able to find it back.

how i hope everything could come to a standstill.

all i hear is the splattering of tear drops.

when will i learn from my mistakes?

Y1:45 AM